Summer is thick against my body 
Lazy and heavy as it lays across my shoulder blades
Whispering of a debt to be paid in summer storms 
His hot breath sweet against my face 

Threats of thunderstorms still months away 
I measure time in seasons of splendid fruit 

Clementines in winter 
The sound of peel ripping from pith echoing deep footfalls in the snow 

When are the cherries full round red and ready in Ontario 
Not yet 

But i remember once
Spitting pips into the crush of rain 
And trying to wash a name off of my skin 
I begged each crack of lightning 
To carve spiderwebbing tree root scars across my back 
A sacrifice to sin 
I prayed the gods accept the traded pain
And steal away any memory of me from him 

Never again will he recall my face 
And if he passes me let his eyes glaze over 
As he thinks suddenly of how 
When you crush a flower underfoot after a summer rain 
With the scent of the last petals breath 
She says - I forgive you 

The day- he is long. But the dark - she is my mistress 
Shed days disguise and bold beneath the eyes of
 heaven let us slip into the daggered silk of mischief 

Come here. 
I can see you want to belong. I can see the subtle ache in you for one to love you, 
an aurora caked in cracked desire and fake histories and only one who wronged you. 

Gift to me your eternal soul - i know you want to 
Look deep into my eyes and let me promise i can save you - absolution 
As if adoration or love could ever convince him?
The God who sits on high and calls for covenants // promises cut with blood
Have you ever heard him? Nor I 

But the dark - even her name sends a silver moon tinged shiver down my spine 
My jaw drops (gra/a/a/ah) and the ancient incisors eve bit that apple with slide forward 
Snake and stumble 

Chaos reigns 

Below us
In the dark soil where every creature knows only eternal night - because remember dark was
first the mother of light 
Press your palms along life lines long into the earth
Dig your claws into the fractal universe of mycelium cascading through the dirt 
Make your hands as filthy as the dark art of fucking when we bring life to earth
Birth / rebirth  / birth it is not beautiful  
Now - do it - you must 

Let the perfect performance of your masks become dust 
Ease with me into an easy trust
With the mundane ecology of suspended lust 

Be with me and the reality of the gravity of this planetary body 
Pulling us down constantly into her molten core 
She begs you like a whore “lie against me” 
Smooth and round like our bodies 

We were made to be held 
There is a reason why my face fits into the space between any one of your collar shoulder jaw bones seamlessly -why any arm around me smells like home 
Human bodies were designed by time in harmony 
What is love - but to find a rhythm in line with divinity?

Strike the chord in my body that makes me feel like a violin and violate the absurdity that this kind of pleasure could be a sin 

I’m calling you in 
Leave your rags or riches 
Come to me in the authentic body of your animal skin 
And i will carve my name into the space underneath your chin 

There was a time when i was afraid to hear or feel or see a heart beat 
But now in bed i press my lips against his neck as he sleeps peacefully 
And feel the rush of oxygen in blood rescuing his body from atrophy with every breath 

I am with the sapphire blue of veins that keep him alive
Violent, violet, velvet blue 
Blue like the marrow of a flame
Blue like the whirlpooled bruises he leaves painted 
cascading from my neck to ribcage without blame

(sigh) oh how the seasons have changed 

This is a time of strawberries 

Is there still earth on your hands from five seconds ago when I asked you for your soul?
Press this mess of earths breath into the tongue of the one across from you 
Remember you are dangerous 
All of us here nameless in the catacombs of time - you get to decide whose side youll die for
Claim your divinity and we can storm olympus and steal the Gods wine, mylk and honey 
Let the bees make us mead as fungal gods divide and conquer
Sink to your knees in the long gold grasses of the now summer and let the wildflowers burn a wildfire of desire and cum in her. Let there be life

This summer is for sinners - and you could all be mine 
Forget about being good - or kind 
And move deft into your power
Shift your shape 

The wild you are seeking outside of yourself exists within
The chaos colliding with your desire to sin 
Makes you holy 

The solstice marks the longest day of the year 
So from here on out 
With every hour the dark reclaims her kin 

Are you a sunshine girl 
Leaving gold dust on the pillow of a lover you never meant to kill 

Or are you coming with us?
Into the dark
Into the deep 
Into the coming winter 

When saviors and the heroes sleep.